Awww you guys are wonderful. Thanks for helping me. Last night was a bad night and I was really struggling. I just get frustrated and I do think the meds help. Without them I am a complete basket case on the best of days, on the worst... well it's pretty bad. I've just started a new med that is very activating (ie no sleep) which is hard because I already have sleep problems, but i need the med, so I am going to have to adjust.