I feel for you... Right now I am in the same mode of just lying in bed. That has been worse because at least I used to stay on the couch and the tv, computer and even a few loads of laundry would complete my day. Now it is nothing, I look at everything around here to do and just dont care. I dont even know what the temperature is outside nor do I care I have a big beautiful built in pool to enjoy.

Enjoy?? what is that anymore in depression. I rapid cycle mostly to depression and I just dont have the strength to follow through on those suicidial plans that pop into my head.

I understand about meds to, I am on none because they make me worse, have tried all of them and it traumatizes me more everytime we try and I get the disappointments of the failure of ever feeling better. It has been 4 yrs!!! Sounds weird but the failure and disappointment is worse then the bipolar.... So I stay in my little world of dysfunction but it is somewhat stable for me, weird but it is "safe" for me....

You mentioned the meds you were on and I have found the very med I need, the mood stabalizers actually set me into a deeper depression. So my pdoc thinks out of the box with me and at one point we tried a calcium channel blocker. The secondary use for them are mood stability. It might be worth looking into...

Good luck and I guess we will both be living like zombies for the summer...