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Old Jul 04, 2010, 10:12 AM
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I have an insanely hard time getting to sleep at night and always have. I toss and turn for hours before I fall asleep, and when I finally do fall asleep I sleep for 12 hours every single day. As you could probably guess this takes a serious toll on my life. I usually fall asleep around 7:00 or 8:00 AM and I usually wake up around 7:00 or 8:00 PM. I barely seen the sun anymore unless it is rising. As I type this I am excruciatingly tired because I did not sleep any last night. I am trying to stay awake all day so I can get my schedule on track, but as all of my other attempts, this one will probably fail. If I don't get 12 hours of sleep I feel tired and fatiuged all day. I would rather be tired than sleep my life away though. I fear there is nothing I can do about it. I take sleeping pills and they don't make me tired, I talked to my doctor and he just reccommended Melatonin which is a OTC sleeping pill. I can take eight of those suckers and still feel like I just woke up. I can't set alarm clocks to wake me up because I sleep right through them. When my parents try to get me up I talk back to the but have no reccollection at all later. I am tired of feeling like a vampire. I am home schooled and I'm getting behind on my school work, I did have a job but naturally my sleeping schedule did not allow that to happen long. Any suggestions?
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"Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there's a circle around it. Sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know. Maybe I had my happiness. I don't want to believe it but, there is no man. Only that moon."