****BIG TRIGGER, SUICIDE MENTIONED*****









Hello,

I'm feeling really down since coming from my weekend pass. I felt urges to SI on Saturday, and now I feel urges to SI, run away from hospital, and kill myself. I feel hopeless, like when I first came into hospital over 2 MONTHS AGO. Why is it taking so long for me to feel close to normal? I'm so sad.

On Friday my Cymbalta dose was increased to 60mg and I'm wondering if that could be why I feel so ******...but another part of me doesn't care WHY I feel bad...just wants it to go away.