The weekend away was perfect...spent the days just eating, relaxing and cuddling.. He really is a special guy.
In the morning we talked about sleeping together etc.. have to say that I was a little confused that we hadn't.. i mean it was a weekend away in a king sized bed lol.
He said the reason he hadn't ripped my clothes off was that he didn't want me to think he was just there for sex.. wants more.. wants to spend every minute with me etc.. SO that made sense.. and yeah then it hapened in the afternoon lol..
I feel like a teenager... we have spent every moment possible together.. and he leaves tomorrow morning early..
I think that it is more than just a fling for me.. it feels right so far. And I don't mind that he works away (all though 4 weeks away is a little long).. he's doing it for the money which is great. and I get to relax and just miss him while he is gone..

My only problem is trusting my feelings enough to open my heart again.. like really open it and let someone else in.. that is going to be the hard part...
He knows a little of what happened to me, and sayd that he's not a cheater and have never done that.... well all that goes through my head is that Mark wasn't like that either and I never expected what happened to have happened...
I may go see my T between now and when he gets back from work just to sort out the emotions a bit more...