I am happy my neice is getting married today. I feel sad because I feel like she cut me out of her life. About a year ago (this would be around the time of my attempt), I noticed that she was no longer on my friendship list. This was shortly after I made a dumb manic joke about a dinner she was at. She mentioned that a couple of Surpreme Court justices were there. Maybe I embarrased her in front of some pretty powerful coworkers/attys. I do not know for sure. And now I am sad that she has not told me what I did. I did send her well wishes as a comment under my nephew's message to her so I hope she gets it. Not trying to force myself back into her life, just feeling sad that I am not in it. I can't help but think that what I said was manic. I am not bitter, just sad I do not understand.