Hey EJNT,

First up what both Byz & Fresia said, secondly you need a therapist to sort out the urges and feelings you are having; if you leave these feelings and thoughts to develop you could be in a situation you would rather not and by your words it is something you would rather not for both of your sakes.

It could be too that you have "want what you can't have" syndrome and that is fuelling your fantasies, which is another powerful reason to seek out therapy. A therapist will help you to organise your thoughts, make sure you know reality from fantasy and keep the two clearly seperated while helping you with your issues.

There is someone out there for everyone, but they don't always gravitate to you and sometimes you will meet them in the strangest places,

Rhian