Keep on going, I promise you it WILL get better.
I know it feels like it will be bad forever and the meds are all horrible and don't work, but they WILL find you drugs that works and life WILL be good one day...
It took me and my doctor a long time to find the right drugs... and while it was happening I spent most of the time wanting to kill myself, it was there in my head and wouldn't shut up... I really glad now that I didn't listen.

I agree with Shakti - tell your doctor everything... my doctor is the only one who gets to know everything that is going on - uncensored... it helps so that he can make the best decisions. Make sure you let them know any side effects or if your mood suddenly changes - maybe the drugs have made things worse...

Remember, little steps, one day at a time, if that gets to hard, one hour at a time, if that gets to hard, take one minute at a time - nice big deep breaths and let all the bad stuff go away

YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS