BlackPup, more and more I feel just as you do about how things have turned out. I feel pretty lucky too all in all. I count my blessings rather than grieve my losses. At first it was a very hard blow and getting out from under the self judgement is a most difficult challenge amid the health issues that turned everything upside down.

I am glad to hear you have found peace on the other side and a new measure of success for your life. Its a good thing.