Peaches, maybe your T is acting like your mom because you are still acting like you did while growing up? You explain how you don't want to talk to T about this stuff face to face because you are avoiding rejection. This avoiding talking to T face to face is what forces you to explain things away in your head and then be wrong in your assumptions about T because you didn't include her input. Getting beyond this fear to talk to T face to face is what will help you get out of this problem I think. How about if you talk to T about this fear of rejection deal?