Hi, I think I have BPD, thought 45 and never been diagnose, was sort of diagnosed with bi polar 17 years ago, well I was on antipsychotics, ads and litium to help my mood swings and anger. NOt sure BPD was so well known then.

I have recently had hospilisation for depression, now and about to start some assessment by pdoc and community team.

what is likely to happen, how do they diagnose and how long, ie how many visist could it take.

reason I am asking is that I am struggling on my own with all the realisation that my past behaviour was dysfuctional and hurt other people, my family, my relationship and my friends or friends I have upset and dont see anymore. Its too much.

should i tell them what I suspect I have or let them work it out via the assessment? what if I am wrong and they say its just depression? where do I go then. How do I cope with therapy in a group setting, which has already been suggested, i would be terrified people would hate me after a while.