I miss my husband so much. This last episode of Bipolar he left home and he doesn't want to come back. I know it's his illness but I just can't get it out of my head how he could just stop loving me and leave when an hour before it happened he was telling me loved me and days before he was saying if I ever left him he would be alone... I am okay one minute then the next I feel like crying, I feel sorry for myself, I can't get anyone to help me help him, I'm angry... 4 years of marriage and he just leaves for no reason.

I would give anything to help him and have him back home, anything... I tried praying, I tried begging him, I tried getting the law involved, and nothing works. I feel like I am losing my mind and like part of me is dying.

I cannot stop going over everything that happened in my head constantly, it's driving me slowly insane. I just want him home.