Trigger Warning.

Sannah-

Partly the stress with my professors make it worse. I transferred with my T and I don't really feel like the new one is supportive. I was feeling suicidal and I couldn't make the thoughts go away no matter what I did. It was the middle of the night and I didn't have anywhere to turn. I needed something to make the thoughts go away. I hadn't felt that bad in a really long time. Like my life was over. Plus my depression was extremely bad. So it wasn't just one thing. It was a number of things added up to push me to do it. The time before that it was when I found out I failed my class. But before that it had been four years. And even then it was only a couple of times. When I was really depressed.