hello. I, too, am schizoaffective. I must say, your writing is very eloquent while psychotic. I have tried to write while psychotic and it always ends up a mess. so kudos. I am not really one to give you advice as I myself am a mess, but I can offer suggestions and support. as everyone will tell you, you should not mess with your meds unless your doc tells you to, but my doc and I have a relationship that allows me to take an increased amt of seroquel as needed. I think it would be good for you to practice grounding skills so that you remain in the here and now. these can be found all over the web, I imagine even on this site. lastly, I would suggest using the chat rooms on pc. you are sure to find support there. and, if you need to chat more personally, feel free to pm me. I will keep an eye on my inbox. good luck.