To be completely honest, I have not been doing the best lately. I've got that claustrophobia feeling again. It's not really "claustrophobia", but that's the best I can describe it. And I'm not really trapped in a small space, but I'm trapped in something.

In the past week alone, I've had three people openly tell me that I should leave my wife and kids, turn myself in to the authorities, and have them throw me in a padded room with a straight jacket because I'm a danger to innocent people. Then a woman accused me of threatening and manipulating her. I spawned a cult-like following that was described by an intelligent individual as "a bunch of lost souls who cling to your identity so desperately that if threatened, they become violent." And I left a community in turmoil. ... The actions committed by me were not intentional ... Yet, I cause destruction to everyone I encounter if I'm exposed to them for a long enough amount of time. It goes to show my lack of control over all this woe. I rhymed.

Lastly, and most unnervingly... I was recently doing some research on the late and infamous Mr. Bundy, and I couldn't help but notice the correlations between our pasts and mindsets. I'm not about to go ... do what Bundy did ... I bear no resentment toward women. But Bundy had a rage that he couldn't control. I feel like I'm losing control. My rage isn't directed toward anything in particular, but it wreaks havoc all the same. How do I stop it?