I completely understand where you are coming from as I have felt the exact same way before. I stopped my meds once (just once) thinking I was ok, I don't need the meds, I can control it on my own, etc. That was the very last time I ever do that because I hated who I was when I was not on meds. In fact, my husband said he won't let me stop taking them. He said he will never go through it again. The last time I quit I hallucinated, got extremely angry, sad....everything was too the umpteenth degree.
You need to talk to your p-doc about changing your meds because the affects could be really bad.
Whatever your decision, I hope you are ok.