OMG i am so confused i hate this feeling that has taken me over.i cant really place it but it is deep and disturbing.i am trying so hard to just push it away.i really dont want to be feeling this way at all it isnt good.i keep thinking if i start cutting myself it will help me get rid of the awfullness i seem to be feeling.god knows i have tried everything else.all i know is i want it GONE.cutting may help.i guess i just want someone to understand