thank u guys for ur support and input. It is so hard that he is gone makes me scream so bad inside and tears me up. Unfortunately i dont think about him so much so i dont feel this way all the time. I do at times remember things with him look at his pictures i had to steal from my mom because she wldnt give me any. He was a great man and i miss him so much. Since hes died i guess ive been trying 2be with him. Ive always said id do anything 2have him back here with me.