I am doing better today. Although I don't have walking passes outside, I was allowed out today to go to my TOPS (Therapeutic Outpatient Program Services, I think) meeting. They interviewed me and showed me around the place, and decided I'm a good match for their Wednesday group, which is more educational. So I will most likely be allowed to go to the Wednesday group tomorrow, and the lady said this week they're focusing on interpersonal skills. So I'm looking forward to that.

HOWEVER, something did bother me today, although I know I shouldn't get all hung up on diagnoses. I have two psychiatrists here, and they both have different diagnoses for me! My main one said he thinks I have a "Mood Disorder NOS, with Bipolar 2 tendencies, and Borderline Personality Disorder", and the other thinks "Bipolar 1 Disorder". I'm not sure if he agrees on the Borderline. So I was originally super angry about the Borderline, saying I didn't have it, no way...but later I did research and it's painfully obvious that I DO have it. So now I'm trying to come to terms with it.