So I got a couple hours more sleep. I'm still having trouble sleeping at night so I hope this doesn't interfere too much.

I honestly don't know what is going on. The people all seem very caring and anxious to get me help. Then it just all falls through.

And I want to just blame this on myself, because I don't have a phone so it is difficult for them to get in touch with me. But that really is no excuse. And that just covers the lack of contact out of courtesy, doesn't explain why they say everything is set up and then no one shows up.

I am still drowsy, can't focus too clearly.

I'm not mad at this I am just upset because more and more I feel there is no way out of this rut even with treatment. I still haven't had someone help me get groceries and I have almost nothing left in the house to eat, and I'm hungry and quite frankly I was hoping for the hospital meal during the partial program to help with that.