ohseedee, my heart is going out to you right now! My father told me something the other day in regards to suicide that made a light go off in my head. I too was having some thoughts that my life wasn't worth living anymore. I posted it here a few days ago. Anyway, He said that the strongest instinct that a human has is the survival instinct. That if I had the strength and courage to fight THAT instinct and kill myself, than surely I have enough strength to turn around and face whatever drove me to the edge in the first place and fight it!Besides that, at least here on this earth we know what we are up against; any pain we experience here is temporary. We don't know what the other side will bring, but whatever it is we will not be able to do anything about it!
I hope that makes sense. It did to me. Please keep us posted! It will help you stay connected to life. Give your body a chance to bounce back from the cymbalta and try something else. Cymbalta was awful for me too. You will be in my thoughts.