I am sure that quoting a 1984 Animotion song will date me but that's really the least of my problems today....

I'm feeling rather obsessed with my ex-T.
He was my first.
First therapist ever.

My husband was surely joking after I said I was sad that I can't email exT anymore (he is ex) and hubby said "Oh don't worry, you can still stalk him online". I stick out my tongue!!!

I'd been thinking about the scenario where I run into him at a BBQ at my new managers house. My new manager lives very close to ex-T. Not that my manager is likely to invite me and my family to a BBQ with him and his family and various neighbors who happen to include my ex-T.
BUT given the less than 1% chance this occurs, I want to be ready.

So, how would I react? What would I say? Could I get him to hug me? Should I challenge him to basketball one-on-one? How would I talk to his wife?
Figured I'd best look up that famous singer with the same name as his wife. Which led me to her facebook page.
No, I never got to looking at the famous singer's page.

He's in the profile pic with her, could have spotted him at 20 paces w/o my glasses. His wife's page has their wedding pics from 20 yr ago (a very slick tux!) and a pic from their 20th anniversary celebration in November. OMG he totally loves her and she totally loves him, absolutely the cutest pics.

Now I've got her profile pic - he's got a real Mona Lisa smile in this one - as the wallpaper on my phone. He really is a good looking guy, I can see why my heart beats faster when I think of him even now.

And I would pay serious money to have this painful obsessive experience extracted from my mind and body.
I am ashamed and embarrassed that I feel this way.
I really need some first aid for this situation.
I do wonder if anyone had told me at the start of therapy that I'd feel this way at the end of therapy - what would I have done???