(((((Crystal)))))
I know you hold some of the bad memories, like me
PM if you need to talk.
Can Vicki kelp you ?? Have you told w_i yet ??
Are you sure you weren't just acting in self preservation mode when you did this "bad, horrible thing" ????

Sometimes we do things because we must, even if we don't know why at the time. Don't beat yourself up about it. We feel very protective towards you, let us help.
Raven Girl & Lucy