I've never put much thought in dream interpretation since usually the dreams I remember are fleeting and completely nonsensical.

Usually if I dream about hurting someone, I'm trying to punch or stab someone who is attacking me and I always miss; my arms feel wobbly and rubbery and I can't hit my attacker.

But last night, I had this horrible dream where I jumped on this boy (no one I know, just some anonymous punk/goth kid who kind of looked like Wyborn from Tim Burton's Coraline). I sat on his chest, brought out a knife and tried to slit his throat. At first it was like usual, where I couldn't physically do it. The knife made a thin scratch.

Then I was filled with this determined rage and I dug the knife into his throat. He bled and I vividly saw the skin splitting apart, like a zipper. Just like my own skin used to do when I cut myself too deep.

Right after I slit his throat I went for his eyes and dug deep X's into them. I was thrilled... It was almost like I was controlling my dream, too, which is something I have never been able to do before. Some people say they can consciously choose what happens in their dreams; I could never understand what they meant until last night.

I woke up and I felt horrible. I was terrified of myself. I told my girlfriend about it, but she avoided talking about it all day. I think she may have felt it was directed toward a certain guy (I have another thread about this guy she's been seeing in the Relationships forum) and I started thinking, maybe that dream was related to the anxiety and anger I've felt towards that guy.

Like I said, I never think too much about dream interpretation. I believe people dream about the things that are on their mind; like the thoughts they usually think, just, under less control. So sure, maybe some subconscious feelings are let out of the pen in our dreams.

And if that's true, do I really want to slit someone's throat? Am I really some horrible murdering maniac-to-be?