Hey there Amanda,

This is a difficult situation for you to be in. The loss of your mother on Christmas Eve couldn't have been easy to deal with and now all these other things to cope with too.

I don't have a problem with peoples choices, just thought I'd let you know that right now so it's out of the way. I do think though that the relationship is uneven and not balanced in particular to you.

I think the first thing you would find in therapy though is that in this case it is you who is important and you have to sort out who you are and what your feelings are and why they are. I doubt anyone would pressure you to do anything but that they would rather support you and hope to guide you through the maze of your own conflicting feelings...once that is done you will be in a better position to make decisions ...

Whatever choices you take will be yours not your therapists so lose the anxiety about that straight up if you can. The Most important thing is getting your moods under your control so that you are more in a position to react appropriately rather than inappropriately. You may have not dealt with your mothers passing and are going through some tough feelings with no idea how to let them out, so please try to be gentler on yourself,

Rhian