Hey there Evening,
Forgiveness goes a long way to bringing peace into the heart and the mind. I understand how you feel and it's a rotter when a young life is brought up without love because we all deserve it you just as much as anoyone else.
You may mellow as you age I hope so because it doesn't feel good being angry through your young years it is a waste of the best part of your life; a time you should be happy with and enjoying. You deserve that happiness and I hope you find it,
Rhian