Hi Black Canary,
I think about seeing my old T sometimes, and what I would say and do. The thought terrifies me.

Obsessions are so tricky, because the more you try to stop the the more obsessed you become. Sheer will-power does little to help. I guess distraction is the best thing.

What do you think is behind the feelings of shame and embarassment?
Try not to be so hard on yourself.