Wow, I'm so sorry. I'm sure this is very difficult. I'm on Lithium & I have been on Kolonopin in the past as well. I'm also married & we are having so many marital problems because of my bipolar. We have a 15 month old & it changed everything making life so hard. We were talking divorce just this weekend but were trying to stay together.
So I hear where your coming from. Try to take one day at a time. Your not going to solve all your problems today or have all the answers today. They will come to you.

I am very uptight, I worry about EVERYTHING. What's helped me lately is TRUSTING IT WILL BE OK! Seriously.

Our babysitter stopped showing up 3 weeks ago. I was furious...now its all working out & costing me less.

I trusted it would be ok. It will be for you too. Keep us posted & best wishes to you & your children.