It's not worth it. I started about a year ago and every day I regret that decision. It became an addiction and I couldn't stop thinking about it. My life became about trying to hide and ever since has been going downhill. I tried to stop many times and hadn't been able to untill I literally scared myself with how out of
control it got. Please don't try it. It just makes things much worse in the long run. Once you start, it's very difficult to stop.