I have been with my husband for 8 years, married for almost 3. I hate that I am not in love with him. He goes through periodic depression a do I, but he never seems to be there for me and I never seem to be able to help him. He says he loves me still but he doesn't always act like it. I took a new job that takes me away from the house most of the week and he only contacts me if I text him first. I don't feel close to him at all. We've only been intimate once in the last 2 months and only after we both were really drunk. I don't like being around him anymore. He's not a bad guy, I just feel like i have to drag him along through life. He only seems to do the bare minimum. He doesn't make plans for the future but relies on me to direct where things go. I want an equal partner. He says I nag him when I try to encourage him. I feel like his mother half the time. For the last month or so I've been looking online desperately trying to figure out if there is a way to make this all work. Some days I'm so frustrated I just want to drive away and never come back. We went to therapy for about 6 sessions, but he never seem to be interested in it. We are both on meds for depression and I feel so much better, but ever since I've felt better being around him has been so much harder. I think its over but I'm scared of whats next.