Amanda,
I am so, so sorry for you. What you are going through sounds devastating - I can not imagine it. I wish so badly that there was something I could do or say to take this pain from you. Special K gives great advice, only deal with todays problems today - leave tomorrow for tomorrow... trust that things will work out somehow, rather than believing the worst... Easier said than done! You are a survivor, you have the strength to get through this. Believe in yourself.

Please know that you will be in my thoughts and I will pray for you, your family and that the medication helps...

K