TheByzantine,
I want my relationship with him to work out. Even though it's been hard, I can really see through the dark times and see that he's a good person. I just wish I know a way to make him happy somehow 'cause I know this situation is making neither one of us comfortable and both of us deserve better.
I think my posts probably start to sound annoying. But I thank you for your help, and thank you to everyone else who've taken the time to read my thread and given me advices.