Amanda,
Definitely take it a day at a time, even an hour at a time. My Bipolar husband left a month ago, he drained the bank account, quit his job, school, said he wanted a divorce and I don't even know where he is! Trust me, you CAN take it an hour at a time. I lost 2 weeks of time because I was so devastated and cried my eyes out in bed. I only just realized it has been a month.
From my perspective, I think that it's pretty ****** that your husband wants to leave because of your Bipolar. A lot of people are telling me to leave my husband but I can't because I love him and I married him for better or worse and I intend on sticking it out. It amazes me how people are so quick to dispose of marriages in general especially those with a mentally ill spouse. Yeah, it sucks and it's amazingly difficult to handle at times but I am a firm believer in love and commitment and this is the life I chose when I married my husband and I would never abandon my husband even if he did it to me ya know?
Feel what you feel but know that what you are going through is serious and you need support just as much as he does and if he chooses not to get support and stick with you, then you take care of yourself and heal yourself...if not for you, do it for us spouses like me who don't have the choice of helping our mates.If he was here I would but it is out of my control. Be strong and just take it an hour at a time!
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