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Originally Posted by Shakti
So, is it just me or does it seem like, for the most part, none of our medications REALLY work for us? No matter how many times we change them?
I mean...is ANYone here "stable"? Has anyone at all found a med/combo/cocktail that has worked for any meaningful period of time? And by "worked" what do you mean? That you functioned, didn't kill yourself? That sort of thing? Or by worked, do you mean you found the right med/combo and lived/live a pretty normal life?
Or do these drugs just maybe keep us alive and barely hanging on?
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So my short answer to your question is, for me at least, no. I have not found a combo that has worked for me any longer than 18 months. And that is sometimes just surviving not really living, not thriving.
My pdoc filled out a FMLA form for my employer and stated that I had a chronic condition, bipolar, that is recurrent every 6-18 months, and that this is how I would always be. I have to admit, he is right, I have been this way for over 20 years. I am now 37. I have gotten help since I was 17 and none of it has given me a normal life. Instead I must content myself with not suicidal, not depressed, not manic, and not psychotic. My life is a series of "not's" I don't want to "not die." I want to live, and apparently that will never happen for me.
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Lauru-------------That's me, Bipolar and Watching TV 
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
---Robert Frost