Hey there acrazynao,

Sounds like you are really under pressure to do all the hard stuff and do it alone. It can be very difficult for one to carry the other one around when they are on a therapy that is working for them but their partner seems immune to medications.

You really need to assess what is better for you; the unhappiness of the marriage or the possibilites of a new future. I know that is scary for you but if counselling didn't work the first time then it won't work a second time either; so maybe the one thing blocking your freedom is that fear or that anxiety of a future alone?

You'll find a great deal of support here and lots of good advice; take from it what you feel is aligned to your good and leave what you feel isn't. I really do hope you make decisions that feel right for you,

Rhian