Just thought I'd tell everyone that I finally worked up the courage to write out a letter to my T. I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't terrified of handing it over her in session tomorrow, but I'm hoping that I will. I didn't exactly own up to everything I have been hiding from her (mostly reguarding my increasing obsession with suicidal thoughts out of fear that I will end up in a hospital) but I did fess up to the topic of my cutting, something I have never told her anything about. I tried to give a somewhat indepth explaination of my history with it, but I can only imagine how insane and incoherent it will probably sound to her. It will be interesting seeing as after I see her tomorrow she will be gone all of next week, so I won't see her until the following tuesday. I hope the note doesn't terrify her, but I feel a little better in that I feel I was pretty honest in it's contents. Wish me luck in summoning up the courage to hand it to her. And also, if any of you have had similar experiences with divulging things such as this to your T in a letter, I'd love to hear them since I am quite wary of the outcome and impact this will have on our relationship. Thanks again ALL of you for being there, you don't know how much of a help you are at the end of the day.

<3<3<3love to you all<3<3<3<3

-Kelly-