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LittleForgetMeNot · Jul 08, 2010, 07:34 AM

He is, I guess you could say my boyfriend. We're not official because at the moment it's long distance and personally I find it hard to commit to something that is solely long distance and will be for another three years, unless he can come up with some way to visit me during summer vacation which is highly unlikely. Right now it just seems to be more of a 'we don't wanna be alone' type thing. I DO love him and he DOES love me but while he has no problem with this, I unfortunately do but that is because I'm depressed and the fact that I love someone who lives so far away makes me feel extremely lonely.

Moving on.. there is this girl who he used to know who used to be in his class before he moved to another state. They were talking and I was fine with it. Then he tells me that she might like him, told me why, and using my girl-mind I told him she did and if he liked her. He said he couldn't deny that he had been attracted to her while they were in the same class and I, though getting slightly hurt from this, brushed it off. Turns out my suspicions were true and my paranoia began. He's always been easily swayed toward girls who like him. Recently "left" me for three other girls, once including my best friend. So I have reason to be wary.

I still had his facebook passwords from the year previous and he's never changed it. I go on and can see how far exactly the conversation is going with her. Last night while me and him had a bit of a fight (over him getting upset with me because I had mentioned a guy who he didn't know) and he was complaining about how crappy his summer was going to her during this time. He's complained to her about me not "loving" him and she called me stupid and a *****..

Also in a message he said that he really wanted to talk to her, and that he missed her. Now he doesn't hide the fact that he loves me on facebook or to his friends or parents. So I don't know why I'm intimidated by this girl but I am and I don't want to be. I just want to stop invading his privacy. It's unfair and I would hate it if he'd do it to me but because of the previous situations I cannot let myself get blindsided and hurt again and I'm using this as an excuse so if the time comes then I can say I knew it all along and we can just move on.. I need help.