I do suffer from ocd,been the butt of a few jokes 4 so long coz that's my initials (go figure) never got any kinda treatment b/c I thought it was under control,and didn't even bother to learn much about it b/c it wasn't interfering with my life much (always able to hide it) nor my ability to function. The suicidal thoughts have never bugged me, they've never made me anxious or scared before,and I've lived with them s0 long, at first I didn't even know they were part of my ocd, just thought I was morbid like that...I usually just dismiss them, but today OMW today was terrible! They seem to have escalated to new heights and I didn't know how to push them aside (thus the feeling of being possessed by them). Wonder if I should tell my pdoc tomorrow,but what would I say? OMW I feel crazy...