I don't have much to say in response to your post mostly because I'm very depressed right now and this breaks my heart and I feel it deeply.... That sounds selfish, like I know how you feel or what you are feeling and I don't--I never could. But I read it and felt like it happened to me, I guess is what I meant to say. My depression does strange things to me and desperate sadness that feels like grief and deep heartbreak is one of them, so I just want to say I'm sorry this has happened to you. So very sorry.

I can't imagine the pain of your husband dropping that bomb on you and your knowing there is someone else already in the wings. Makes me kinda want to punch him in the teeth. But I'm not nice.

You will get through this and be ok. Sounds trite, but you will. And if your husband is not the support you need, then you don't need him at all anyway. You deserve much better. Hopefully the lithium and klonopin will help you not only get through this, but also help you do better in general.

We're here.