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'Knowing I will end up doing it again' is setting you up to fail, it's like you have already given yourself permission to do it and it's ok.
It's not ok, I used to do it alot (managed to cut an artery once - not fun), I managed to 'not do it much' for a few years but since last year I have been doing it more and more, it's never enough, I have needed stitches a few times (only ever went to my GP once to get them) I'm ashamed of myself.
I spent those years 'growing out' the scars so they were not so obvious, I could wear short sleeves etc and not worry what people thought, now my arm is a mess (sent a pic to a friend who wanted to 'try it' and luckily iy scared her enough she didn't do it) I can't wear short sleeves without it being 'in your face' obvious, I have to hide my arm from people who know that I have done it because I don't want them either worrying about me or being disappointed in me. It's not clever and it's not fun.
You seem to have enough insight to know that yet you seemed to look for a reason to use it as a coping strategy - the only person it hurts is you (and if you do ever have to go get stitches hope that you get the nice nurse / Dr who doesn't treat you badly and make coments about time wasting and there being 'really' sick people who need their help.) You sound intelligent, try and find another way of coping, cutting isn't it.
Sorry if I sound harsh but I hate to think of people having the same probs with scars etc that I do.
Splitz
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