thinker22 so sorry you are going through this right now and it's brutal that you had to choose between meds or your psychiatrist. That's disgusting.

Certainly talk to your therapist about the trip to see the family. Guilt is the worse, but you need to take care of yourself right now and if that means not seeing them that's what you need to do. My parents are a huge trigger for me and I haven't spoken to them since May, so I can relate to the guilt.

I hope that your therapy session goes better tomorrow and you are feeling a bit better. Take care of yourself and keep us posted.