Thanks sO much for your kind words and understanding...think the thoughts have left for now. Had a terrible night, but woke up with a "clean" mind...

Seeing my pdoc later today, and will take the advice and tell him about yesterday.
Got some great news from him too, he said I won't need to hunt for a separate T, as it's his responsibility to treat me, both medicinally and therapeutically He did however suggest I join a support group, and gave me a referral,
I'm currently looking into this...

I'm so relieved that I don't need to find another doctor...

Thanks again guys. I know I haven't been very visible here on PC for a while, I just don't feel like I have anything of value to add right now, but you're all in my thoughts and prayers