I know what you mean about supporting others versus showing ourselves the same compassion. I am sorry you have been down for so long. For the past 7 years I have been down more than not so this break right now is most welcomed. It is a bit unnerving. Like walking around with a ticking time boom attached to my back. I find it hard to balance my attentiveness to my mood. Panic sets in with the slightest off balance response to anything. I catch myself laughing too enthusiastically and I wonder if I am getting manic. I catch myself feeling jumpy and I wonder if I am heading for a crash. In between time I worry I will self profess a switch. A bit crazy making. I slept a full 7 hours uninterrupted last night. Very unusual for me. I woke a bit frightful. So often long sleeps have triggered a switch. It took me a good long while to orient myself once I woke up.

Wishing you only wellness. Take good care.