Thanks everyone for your support.

I've decided to fly out to see my family for the week. Yesterday my depression dropped down to a manageable level, but my anxiety was high. I called the pdoc and instead of more diazepam or Geodon, she suggested that Geodon may have been causing akasthesia, which is why I felt all shaky and like I was crawling out of my skin inside...hence the anxiety and nervous energy, she said to take 50mg of Benadryl last night and see if that helped. So far I don't feel anxious or jittery this morning. Kind of calm really. Still have the urge to pace when I stand up, but it's much better. She also called in an Rx, in case Benadryl doesn't help over the next few days, so I can pick it up at the pharmacy before my trip today. Can't remember what it's called, but it counteracts akasthesia.

I can't believe how much better (almost normal) that I feel today just after taking the Benadryl last night. I hope it lasts.

I will try to stay in touch on my trip. I'll have my computer. I'd miss you guys anyway if I didn't check in. I think I'm going to be okay. At least that's how I feel this morning. Having hope is nice for a change.