I have two illnesses, Bipolar and Borderline. Both illnesses have an impulsive side, and spending money is a known symptom.
So when I start to spend money, what is going on? Am I going manic? Am I Borderline? Or am I just ME?
What if it's not the illness, and I just have a poor lack of self-control when it comes to finances?
How can I know?
With my old psych nurse (I had to switch because of insurance) it seemed that every time I told her I was spending money, she automatically thought I was manic. But I really wasn't manic, I had no other symptoms. So maybe it was the Borderline? Or maybe it's just me?
We have $73,000 in debt right now, partly due to a job loss and unemployment, but mostly due to my inability to control the finances. It really needs to get under control somehow.
I've been reading a lot of stuff from Dave Ramsey lately (financial guy, about getting out of debt) and it's helping, but now I'm just obsessing over money and getting a bit crazy when I run out.
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Martina
30 year old wife & mom to a 5 year old girl
Bipolar Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder
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