Just when I think things start looking up and I'm dealing with my husband's Bipolar issues and my own about being abandoned and saying he hates me... I think I can get through it then the sadness comes and it hits me so hard sometimes. I FINALLY got two of my prayers answered and was granted a court order today to get my husband treatment because I found him this morning! I was so happy I was crying in the court room but then he was on the run again... I guess the details don't matter...

PLEASE pray for my husband's safety and that he gets enough clarity to come home. I can't take this roller coaster anymore, I thought I could, I thought I was strong enough and believed love was enough but I don't think it is. I am just so sad.