Hester...What you're describing here, finally admitting you are "in love" with the man, is like a repeat script of the situation that brought me here several years ago. I guess it was about 6 years ago...quite a long time, and I've been a member here on PC ever since. Sometimes I am actually able to be helpful to others after having recovered.

Reading your words really sounded so familiar. Rather than recounting all of it here, I'll pm you.
Patty