Hope I can join in the discussion.

Not sure if I dissociate or not but I too go away during my sessions. I have always wondered what happened and don't really know I'm gone untill I come back, if that makes any sense to anyone. Anyway when I come back the first thing I see is my T's eyes. It seems like he is right in front of me. When I see his eyes it's like I come too and know I'm in the room again. Sometimes I come too feeling different emotions but it's like I'm emotionally struggling between two worlds but don't really remember the other gone place.

I've wondered what was happening and what this was. Also I don't remember some parts of the sessions, it's fuzzy. When I go away it's just literally all the color black, like I'm just gone or agin I don't even know I was gone until I come back I don't know.