im not sure if i doing the right thing talking to people i dont know / or know me
i have 4 children who i think are ashamed of me for some of the things i do.
i have a crumby job washing dishes because i dont think i could do anything else.
i dye my hair at least once a week just so that people will talk to me instead of talking about me.
i have also found myself hiding my feelings behind masks so that people dont know how much im hurting . i have driven most of my friends away so that they dont see the real me.
im a weak man that fears about things 99% of the time my worst fear is being alone.
sorry for going on.. hope i dont sound like a .....wierdo (as my kids would say)