I'm thirty-four, she's a couple years older.
We have a lot of obstacles to overcome, they will cause us pain, I know that.
Old wounds don't heal unless they're opened up and debreded. I wish I had more confidence in me. I know my affection for her is deep, but due to my low self esteem, I often doubt her feelings. I'm afraid something will either take her from, or drive her from me. These feelings seem to get more intense the more she means to me. Some days I'm fine and I need to assure her of my feelings, others, I need reassurance.

All I have to offer is all that I am.
I try to be a decent man, I refuse to lie to her, to belittle her, or abuse her. I listen when she talks and try to understand the things that are a part of her life. I read up on her mental, and medical conditions, I learn about her hobbies so that I can have a better frame of reference when she speaks about them. I know that no-one had better harm her and I find out about it, she's strong enough to take it. But it's a respect issue.

Can anyone explain EMDR therapy in a bit more detail, how it's done and how it works?

If I could have custom ordered a woman, she is easily what could have been delivered.
Smart, sexy, witty, understanding of my faults, supportive.

I've been in numerous situations where my life could end.
But this scares me more than anything, ever.